Sunday, 21 December 2008

Psychosis - Premieres February 2009

Psychosis will feature as part of the Scene Pool '09 season at the Camden People's Theatre and marks a return to my personal exploration of  work that physically pushes the body via studies of minutiae.  However this will be the first time for a year that I take the exploration back to the stage and away from the live art process.  
Psychosis will be a physical piece grounded in Butoh & Physical Theatre.  It initially began by taking Sarah Kane's "4:48 Psychosis" as a source of inspiration and investigation, however as the dialogue was stripped away in order to discover the muted 'self' I began to discover a far more personal experience at its heart befitting my work as a whole.  Through using automatic writing and beats from the original playwork this has become my own journey into self destruction and depression.  

"Two sides to my self, you make me betray myself." 
Psychosis is not a journey - it is a state. Figures drift past you everyday - we are surrounded at times and yet constantly alone. In the company of the self - what does one have left when that starts to erode.

Saturday, 20 December 2008

4

You trap me within myself
I'm fucked,
I experience my past again.

Audience Response: Erosion

Erosion - Chelsea Theatre, London 10 May 2008 "Interesting & Spectacular - I left in a state of confusion and continuing thought of how our human rights have slowly eroded"

"I was really interested in that way the body responds to the sound and proximity of another being. Humans are built from soil and are going back to soil." - Reia

"It is impressive how the body manages to stay still and take all the heat to an uncomfortable level." - Antonella Axisa

"This is really effective, it makes you feel both comfortable and very disturbed - something between annihilation & freedom almost... I don't know why though both feelings... But finally one is left with a sense of slow torture."

"Found it disturbing in the beginning and overwhelming and almost tender after. I felt that because of the heat it reminded me of what it could be like in a womb."

"The experience was organic and instinctive. I would loved to spend an unlimited time in there..."

"I enjoyed the experience but I didn't realise that there was a real person inside the clay... a very good idea..."

"Disturbing, felt slightly self conscious about looking, touching another person in the privacy of a small room. Skin make up was excellent, tempting to feel the texture of."

"...Karen Finley would be proud..."

"...tangible brilliance..."

"...The discomfort of the space was wonderful..." - Tim Jeeves

"Sad & wanting. Broken, yet unable to fix or find a solution to a plightless cause. Yet the desire to help & release the man of his clay skin, to allow a sense of freedom from the constraints that bind him [drives us]. It is hopeless..."

"It is an uncomfortable yet fascinating experience - the body is both beautiful and worrying. The texture of the clay is glorious - like peeling skin."

"Very moving - was really in tears - felt both vulnerable with the body and also paternal as if it was a new born."

"The body danced as it responded to a lullaby - beautiful..."

"At first I wanted to scrape the clay away and then felt the need to put it back on."

"Intimate & unnerving - an old school Gollom..."

"Intense, hot and disturbing. Reflects upon the inhumanity in Burma."

"With its constrained setting and simple means and materials, this seems to me to be the most satisfying and achieved piece in the entire show!!"

"I think the word of isolation springs to mind..."

"I wanted to help him!"

"I felt protective, I tried to get little pieces of clay off him. I realised it was his choice, but I still wanted to take him out of there.... so sweet..."

"Thank you. I felt slightly uncomfortable but it was a moving experience - he seemed so fragile."
"Weird but really good. I wanted to take him out."

"Waiting outside I found it difficult to cope with the idea of knowing that I would soon go into a room where anything could happen. Upon going inside, I found myself confronted with a creature I felt compelled to help but at the sametime not knowing how to. It was quite a moving experience and difficult to deal with." - Kiran from Camberwell

"Claustrophobic. Unnerving. Sense of reality... about people out there living with no hope of being free. They are trapped. I felt trapped inside. There wasn't any air. It was like being solitary confinement. The clay made me think of raw sewage: lost in one's own indecencies. No room to even stand."

"I felt trapped and could not find a way out - you seemed to... It'll be on my mind for a long time."

"Moved. I wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him it would be ok. Is that patronising? Should I have felt pity - was it even pity? I couldn't just watch, so I kissed my fingers and placed it on his lips. Still Thinking - Thank you." - Daisy Orton - Accidental Collective.

"Feelings of compassion. Did I create this?"

"Broken, shapeless body - all clefts and fissures. Abandoned yet intimate, a yearning... that fills you with love."

"Very sad and hot."

"I felt stuck in an artificial sense of nostalgia created in his head."

"Hot, unique and the feeling of desperation - Very good work!" - Jamil

"It's hot, the sound of dried, cracking mud fills the air. How long has he been in here? Butoh in an enclosed space. Claustrophobic but intriguing."

"It was the limit of something. The little movement was beautiful and powerful. It was between life and somewhere we're facing to our death."

"Heat, warmth, breath, heart beats, heat, hot, dry, precious moments, cracking, peeling, changing, pulsing, touching, sensing, loving."

"Because the audience has to be alone with the performer I experienced not only the performance but also an 'uncanny' real relationship which never exists in the big theatre. This was very interesting for me - thank you."

"It brought out a desire to comfort rather than assist the erosion."

Wednesday, 17 December 2008

Psychosis

A new solo work is currently going into pre-production that I hope debut in the new year. It is very personal to me and marks a return to the exploration of my abject self.

Thursday, 4 December 2008

3

Two sides to my self,
you make me betray myself.

Francis Alexander

The following is an open letter of support from Francis Alexander (Artistic Director of the Chelsea Theatre, London):

"Chelsea Theatre was very happy to host to your work EROSION during the Book of Blood, as part of our season of live art, SACRED, in May this year [2008]. Your work was thoughtful, intense and at times managed to be both beautiful and disturbing. I know the work itself requires a huge personal investment from you, and that was obvious. The resulting presentation happily and proudly sat within the lineage of the foremost international body artists like Ron Athey and Annie Sprinkle, whom we've similarly hosted at Chelsea Theatre in the last eighteen months. Obviously I'm very keen to keep in touch with you so that I can see how your practice develops, and wish you the best of luck."

Lyn Gardner

On the 'Butoh 400m' performance that featured as part of the Grunts for the Arts first Sports Day.

"...your piece is really fantastic..."
- Lyn Gardner - theatre Critic for The Guardian.


Also you can find a link to Lyn Gardner's 4 star review of 'Deep End' - that I was part of by clicking here.

Audience Response: [meditation]

[meditation] - Wired Up Festival 2007

The following is just a small selection of the many positive comments left for this particular performance...

"Quite distrubing and challenging to watch." - Lucy Smith

"The initial reactions were unexpected, but a little later everything seemed to move in harmony." - Niradh Kaul

"A wonderful experience; a little scary at times. Better than anything at the Tate." - Tammy Harrington

"Primal Scream! Waking up into a dream world filled with terror & fear..." - Denise Mangiardi

"An interesting contrast of shock and distubing comfort." - Andy McDonnell

"An interactive thought provoking experience that challenged my surroundings and opened my perception..." - Luke Harris

"I felt trapped inside a private moment - it was was very uncomfortable and takes a while to recover from." - Alice Pinto

"Another level. I don't usually shit myself but I nearly did in there!" - Steve Raman

"It is a terrifying experience and emerging from it is weirdly and surprisingly healing..." - Sovmile Oalta

Audience Response: [meditation] the conception of abject scream

[meditation] the conception of abject scream - Whitechapel Gallery, London 17 Nov 2006

"I was chilled to the core: here are two bodies that look like companions I have spent hours with, and yet are so utterly absent in everything but physical form." - John Chambers

"...suitably intense and painfully moving... I sensed a sense of disturbing eroticism... Beautiful." - Othon

"This is like Hell on Earth!" - Troy

"Like something from the mind of Francis Bacon." - Katja

"What if I would have touched the people? ...I was terrified, afraid of them!" - Alisha

"It helped that I know you, but just any more time in the room and you would have devoured my soul." - Jamie Rosler